Corrinne May - The Answer

Beautiful song...hope it encourages you.

SUFFERING

It's the last day of the year 2007...and God has spoken about "Suffering".

I am beginning to appreciate my anchor verse even more, Romans 8:18:-

"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."

I told WG yesterday that I want to be Jonah...I want to runaway...(but I made a joke: "But there is no whale to eat me up!")

What is ahead is not going to be easy at all...so I pray...God, help me to pray as Jesus prayed, "My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will." (Matthew 26:39) At the present moment, I can only pray.."If it's possible, please take this cup away from me."

Ah well, it's a long long journey...need lots of strength, hope and faith!

A dear friend gave me Corrinne May's CD titled "The Gift"...(Dear, thank you so much) I am so encouraged by song No.5 "THE ANSWER".

I believe you are the answer to every tear I've cried
I believe that you are with me, my rising and my light.
Give me strength when I am weary, give me hope when I can't see
Through the crosses I must carry, Lord, bind my heart to thee.
That when all my days are over and all my chores are done.
I may see your risen Glory forever where You are.

Thanksgiving for the year 2007

I want to thank God for:

1. Deepening my experience of His love through the ups and downs this year - the power of the Cross

2. Strengthening my faith in Him as I grow in the knowledge of how great and wonderful is He

3. Leading me into a new phase of life - MARRIAGE - where I experience the most intimate relationship ever. I am married to a man who loves me deeply and who has been God's conduit of unconditional love and acceptance. This relationship has truly healed me.

Hubby, thank you for standing by me...for loving me with commitment and perseverance...for making this journey of life less difficult and more enjoyable.

4. Leading me to a new firm which fits me better

5. Bringing my family closer together

6. Deepening my love for the adorable JYFers

7. Causing each youth to grow

8. People who have come to know Christ over the year

9. Fruitful ministry together with brothers and sisters in S-Word through EOs etc.

10. A growing caregroup

11. Friendships which have deepened through ups and downs and a deeper understanding of the importance of healthy relationships

I am sure there are lots more that I can thank Him for. All in all, it's been a good year, despite difficult times. God will never stop building up my faith in Him, a faith that is strong, a faith that will withstand all difficulties, a faith that lasts through eternity.

Thank you Lord for everything.

The Relational Word

Currently reading this book "The Relational Word". It's a good book! God has sent this book to me at the right time.

During this Christmas, a strong message rings in my heart (to a point where I spoke about it in my sleep apparently =) hahaha)...RELATIONSHIP.

Jesus came - God became Man - to dwell among us unworthy and sinful humans - to reveal His GRACE and TRUTH. Grace and truth was embodied in the person of Christ.

After Jesus resurrected, the Holy Spirit came to live in each and every child of God, to empower us to live out that Grace and Truth in our lives so that others might come to see Christ in us!

People come to know Jesus through Christians who model for them Grace and Truth... RELATIONSHIPS.

Sadly, we are often distracted by many other things in life, such that we lose the ability to walk into the lives of people who need to know Jesus personally.

Are we ourselves enjoying a deep and personal relationship with Christ? Are we knowing Him more and more through the bible, through faith and obedience? Or is He far far away?

As I realise the power of relationships, I realise my own need to build a deep and personal relationship with God. He is not far away...in fact He is close to every child of His

Blessed Christmas!

Back from church camp 2007!

The sermons were SUPERB! FANTASTIC! If anyone wants a summary of the 3 sermons let me know hahaha, I can repeat them for you!

Was feeling rather tired emotionally during the camp, so I prayed to God and asked Him to lead me to those whom He wanted me to speak to. Amazingly, there were a number of divine appointments throughout the camp =)

(Kai, thanks for being around on that critical night...)

Lots of thoughts went through my mind during the camp...hard to share them on the blog...but all in all, I believe that God is bringing us into yet another exciting year of growth as each of us play our own parts.

Went to get more books from Tecman yesterday! hahaha..hope I finish reading them.

Heard some good news from a very good friend of mine on the way back to Singapore! (Congrats my dear! Happy for you! =p)

Spent some time with a youth yesterday...My heart has been very burdened for those who spent their childhoods in dysfunctional families. I went through my own bulk of issues and baggages, it was tough...but God led me through them all.

GODLY RELATIONSHIPS HEAL..that's my strong belief and conviction. It's my prayer that I will see God heal more and more broken souls with His love. Rather heavy hearted lately because of this...and its time to hope in God for those who need His comfort.

For God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Thank You Jesus!

A little gloomy... =(

Was a little down again over the past weekend..

Nothing BIG happened...just FELT a little depressed...

The little depression affected one of my brothers in CG (I think)...I felt rather sorry for that.

Was a little upset that some people din turn up at the CG dinner on sat...

Had to rely on God for ministry on Sunday...wasn't easy...

Shared a little bit with Kai and Kel about how I was feeling...told them I felt like "disappearing" for a while to be on my own =)

Had a super long day on sunday..Service - lunch - prac - JYF leaders' camp...

Slightly refreshed by the time with JYF leaders...touched by Kel's call to find out how I was doing..

Still lots of activities going on this week...

Feeling tired...but I am looking forward to the break in Genting.

Ah well... ups & downs

So encouraged...=)

Feeling so encouraged today. =)

Encouraged by my lovely youths (1) who did such a great job at the camp (2) who are growing in their knowledge of God day by day...and most importantly, (3) who are experiencing the love of God at the foot of the Cross...

Encouraged by the conversation with a transformed youth at the camp...

Encouraged by God who injects so much hope in me, in preparation of an exciting year 2008...

Encouraged by an enjoyable conversation with a very very dear friend of mine...=p (Girl, press on and put your hope in His unfailing love ya!)

Encouraged by a book I am now reading.. "Know What You Believe, Know Why You Believe"...

Encouraged by the fact that I located by wallet...

What a wonderful day!

Just You and me

Hmm...been having many many thoughts lately..good ones.. abt ministry, abt friends, abt everything, abt what I want to do for Him in 2008 etc.

But...I think I want to stop thinking of all that and just think about Him.

Just like in a marriage, a couple can be talking about many good things, about good friends, about the children etc but just not about themselves. (Once in a while it happens to my marriage =p)

Guess it's the same with my relationship with Him...time to just seek Him and enjoy being in Him.

Energetic youths...those were the days =)

Just came back from JYF camp's Night Trail.

The leaders did a good job in deciding to go for Night Trail instead of a campfire due to the rain. =)

I enjoyed myself very much...it's always wonderful to be around the youths. But I really could not run around very much with them. I really respect MK, SY and RN who could run around with them...from esplanade to suntec back to esplanade then to marina then back to esplanade again then to city hall...crazy eh..hahaha

Thank God for many new friends at the camp. It's always encouraging to see new faces. I know the leaders are doing a good job too! Thank God!

I had a lot of fun..a pity I can't be there throughout due to work commitments. But thank God I can visit again tomorrow evening! =p

Okie..time to zzzz...

Prayer: Dear God, please help all the campers sleep well tonight, that they would not find the floor to hard and would find their sleeping bags really comfortable. Please also protect them from mosquito bites. In Jesus Name I pray, Amen =)

Busy weekend =) but thankful...

Time flies...it's the start of a brand new week.

Was physically really realy really tired yesterday..dunno why =) But thank God.. I managed to sleep close to 9 hours last night.

Happy for I&F who got married on saturday..=) Pr J's sharing at their wedding reminded me of my own marriage...was reflecting quite a bit over the weekend about my own marriage (although it's just been 4 months)...and concluded that the both of us have got lots to learn. =p

The initial months of married life is somewhat the "honeymoon period"... =) once we start to settle down, get used to each other's presence at home etc...the real test begins! haha~~ It's exciting and at the same time humbling to know that we have got lots to learn. It's assuring to know that God is with us and will guide us through every little step.

Had a terrible headache after the wedding.. so I missed JYF's pre-camp prog. Their camp starts today! So exciting..but sob =(..can't be there most of the time. ("Dear God, please grant the youths a great time learning and having fun at the camp. =)")

Had a great time with CG on saturday evening. We studied the bible together, sang songs together. I was once again encouraged by the growth in our group.

Had a good time sharing with WG yesterday..haha..he was and is still my best co-worker in ministry!! We are looking foward to an exciting and focused year 2008.

I have a tendency to wanna make changes to all the problems and imperfections that I see around me, but that's rather impossible because there is just so much that I can do. I thank God for reminding me to persevere in prayer, to be faithful in my little area of influence and to trust that He will make all things beautiful in His time.

All in all...I am grateful to God...He makes all things beautiful in His time...

Czardas (Valerie Kim, 8 years old) ...memories =p

hehe...little HN's love for her instrument and passion for it reminded me of my past. =)

My last piece on the violin was Czardas at the age of 12. It's a nice piece...

But I stopped due to personal reasons. Have always wanted to pick the instrument up again but NO TIME haha!

If I do have the time, I believe I will pick up again..just that I probably have to start from Grade 1 all over hahaha =)

Thank God anyway for classical music..that nourishes the soul.

Aiyo..Insomnia again but for a diff reason

Aiyo...managed to sleep only after 1am last night leh...

Why? Not because of the cold..but because I had too many exciting thoughts going on in my head after praying with WG.

Had lots of exciting ideas regarding ministry next year...but I think the ideas came at a wrong time in the night lah. =)

There are times when I just wish to stop thinking...even if the thinking pertains to good stuff haha..cos I WANT MY SLEEP!

So I ended up reading a book in the living room...only after 1.5 chapters did I start to doze off...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I just envy WG leh.. he can fall asleep within SECONDS! Argh!!!! Always tempted to disturb him..but thought that would be too mean lah =) =) =p

PRAYER: God, I want to be like WG, who can knock out anywhere, anytime hahaha

Out of darkness into light

I am grateful to God that I am feeling slightly better..and I finally could sleep without much difficulty last night.

This period of sickness hasn't been easy because there are times when I battle with negative thoughts about myself, circumstances and God.

Now that I am feeling better and more able to reflect, I realise how much I need the Lord's forgiveness for all that unnecessary negativity.

Read this prayer from a card on my office table, think its a timely prayer for me:

"Lord, I believe in You and know that You have lifted me out of the darkness of hopelessness, futility, and fear. I confess any time I have chosen to walk in the darkness of doubt, disobedience, or blaming You for my circumstances. Forgive me."

I want to rest in the goodness of God and trust Him wholeheartedly.

It's a brand new week and I want to learn to trust again.

I am grateful for WG's presence in my life.. he will always tell me what's right and where I should go. =) He told me yesterday that I just got to TRUST, and I agree.

Trouble sleeping... =(..but found a remedy =p

Been having trouble sleeping..

cos of the flu..

Now trying Pr JV's
2 nights ago, I decided to give up trying torecommendation...3 lemons - 2 litres of juice - with honey - super a lot of vit C (9grams) to be exact. Hopefully that will boost my immunity system. Not really taking that much vit C though. Oopps!

I don't like to have trouble sleeping. So that's been a cause of frustration for me. haha..but I sort of found a remedy.

I gave up trying to sleep. Since I had nothing constructive to do, I memorised the front part of Psalm 103..guess what? I fell asleep shortly.

Haha then I tried that again last night. Continued to memorise another 2 verses of Psalm 103..

"For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His love for those who fear Him, as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him..."

Guess what? I fell asleep in a few minutes again =)

Think I will do that again tonight..and finish up the whole Psalm hahaha =p

Thank God!

MC today..and a lesson on prayer

I have 2 days MC...so stayed home today to rest.

At last, got antibiotics from the doc...so I got to take the whole course. Haven't taken antibiotics for a super long time..cos I try to avoid that as far as possible.

Sleepy all the time.. haha..hope I recover soon...dun want to go to Genting with a cold.

Read Pastor Edmund Chan's "Growing Deep in God"...just a few pages..but was reminded of something really important.

PRAYER...the LIFE of a Christian. It's so easy to stop praying...really...it just does not seem very natural to pray. I have been struggling to pray.

It's wrong to think of prayer as something all Christians must do out of obligation. It's also inadequate to pray just for ministry purposes. Prayer's about abiding in our loving Father and practising the presence of God.

"It is not God who needs our prayers, but we who need God - not as the cosmic answer to our questions not the celestial solution to our problems, but for who He is and for who we are when we are in Him. Jesus understood this - that is why prayer was pre-eminent in His life and ministry." (at pg 50 of Growing Deep in God)

It's so hard...a hard lesson to learn I must say...=(

"My House shall be called a house of prayer for all the nations." Mark 11:17

The Church must pray more...

Choices, Uncertainties... His Hand =)

Had a good time with BH during lunch today. Went to support her brother's hawker stall. The food's quite good I must say, at least I enjoyed it. Please approach me for details if you want to go try out the sliced fish soup.

We talked..and I shared about some thoughts this morning.

I have been thinking about the path to take in the future... will I continue to work as a lawyer? Should I? I am now in a firm that allows me to grow as a lawyer...but will I still be here in a few years time? When children come along, what would happen? When will God call WG to step into ministry ft? When he gets called, should I continue to work? Where will this current job bring him to? etc....etc....

Basically, I told God all that...and I asked him about the uncertainties ahead of me. So many uncertainties and possible paths to take.

But, I concluded that I could leave all those uncertainties into the hands of God...my loving Father who has the best plan in His mind and who is leading me step by step. Afterall, He was the one who led me to this firm and WG to the current company. We have no doubts about that and we are grateful for that =).

God is interested in our lives.. and because He is interested in my life, I know I need not worry about the future. He will grant me the wisdom I need at every juncture...and He will lead me to make decisions which are pleasing to Him. =)

Shared with CG last sat.. some people run after many things but at the end of 50 years, look back and regret not having involved God in the whole process.. some, on the other hand, faithfully cling on to God in every decision and look back on their 50 years and say "Thank God for bringing me to where I am now."

Only one thing's required of me right now...=)

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." Proverbs 4:23

Same birth date haha =p

Some of you would know that my favourite actress is Jessica Hester Hsuan.

Haha..missed the last series of PARENTAL GUIDANCE but watching the episodes off YouTube now.

She is apparently shooting PARENTAL GUIDANCE 2 now.

I like her personality, her looks etc. haha.. don't worry, she is not my 'idol' and I am not exactly a 'fan' haha.

Found out yesterday that her birth date is 18 August too! =)

The Song of the Vineyard : Isaiah 5:1-7

Studied this passage yesterday.

I was reminded of an important truth ...... God has provided us with all the conditions that we need for growth and fruit bearing.

"What more could have been done for my vineyard than I have done for it?" (v4)

What has God given to us:

1. His Son Jesus Christ
2. His Word
3. His abundant promises
4. His protection
5. His unfailing love
6. His grace
7. His power
8. ....
9. ....

God is proactive in our growth..He gives us the best conditions and His help because He loves us. But we got to do our part too... FAITH & OBEDIENCE =)

Sometimes, it's easy to think that we are the ones struggling to live the Christian life and God's just expecting to see results. But that's not true..cos He has already done everything for His precious vineyard.

M-time: "THE GAME PLAN" =p

Just came back from a movie "The Game Plan".

We thought we made a right choice watching this movie tonight for our weekly M-time. =) We had a good laugh.

For those who have not watched it, I would recommend that you do so..it's really funny and very very meaningful. Shan't say more! We were so touched by the movie.

It helped that we watched the show at Tiong Bahru Plaza...a place which always brings back lots of memories for us coz that's where he first popped the question in Dec 2002 hahaha!

Ah well...thank God for the great time!

Still sick =( But happy too! =p

Had a great time practising with WY, JC, Mic,SW and Kel...!!

We had so much fun and nearly went crazy over some songs haha!

I love to dance to music. God made me this way...just so sensitive to music and rhythm. Sometimes I wonder whether people find me weird haha..always so jumpy. But that's just how I am wired. And sometimes it is really fun going crazy with brothers and sisters haha...there's just so much joy in praising God.

I believe in being expressive in worship..because God gave us emotions, He gave us the ability to express ourselves with body language etc..hehe..King David danced while praising God too! There are verses in Psalms which talk about dancing while singing praises! Make a joyful noise unto our Lord!

If I could, I would want to serve in dance ministry! haha..but getting old...bones and muscles giving way.

Yeah! Yam & Kel finally back! I missed them so much! Was literally counting down...=) They sent me home today..so sweet of them...they r just like big bro and sis to me.

Still having the cold though...been quite a while. Hope I get better soon!

It's going to be a long day tomorrow..God will sustain me!

Prayer for the day

Sometimes, our minds go out of control and we find it hard to pray.

Sometimes, negative thoughts and doubts just hit us and take over my minds.

But God has called us to love Him with all our minds...

My prayer for today (Psalm 86:1-7):

"Hear, O Lord, and answer me for I am poor and needy.

Guard my life, for I am devoted to You.

You are my God, save Your servant who trusts in You.

Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I call out to You all day long.

Bring joy to Your servant, for to You, O Lord, I lift up by soul.

You are forgiving and good, O Lord,

Abounding in love to all who call to you.

Hear my prayer, O Lord, listen to my cry for mercy.

In the day of my trouble I will call to you, for You will answer me."

Thank God for EVERYTHING?

At home for the whole of today because I am down with a bad cold and boss told me I should rest and recover soon.

Why am I down with a bad cold? A few reasons: Chilly wind at night, lack of vit c, insufficient rest, NEGATIVE EMOTIONS

I firmly believe that NEGATIVE EMOTIONS can bring lots of illnesses to a person. Stress, depression, hatred, bitterness, discontentment, discouragement etc...such emotions do not bring health to one's physical body.

Some of you would know, I have been rather depressed lately. Why? It's a long story..

BUT

God spoke through a sermon I listened to this morning. A familiar passage - Phil 4: 4 - 9....one of my favourite passages.

DO NOT BE ANXIOUS ABOUT ANYTHING AND GIVE THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!

I can choose to dwell on sad thoughts, problems, stress, difficulties...or I can choose to dwell on what is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable etc.

I admit that what's been going on in my mind lately are largely negative stuff. Terrible! Terrible!

My prayer today: "Abba Father, forgive me for dwelling on the negative stuff and for neglecting the importance of thanksgiving. Please help me to give thanks for EVERYTHING and to dwell only on what is good. In Jesus Name I ask and pray, Amen!"

Vision & Focus

A number of things have been on my heart lately...but I have yet to form a clear picture.

There's just so much going on in this broken world..so many needs...

We are living in the end times, the war is waging in our society and in every nation...

It takes broken relationships in one's life to mess things up for him/her and distort TRUTH and it takes healthy relationships to make things right. But there are so many obstacles to authentic relationships and the church is lacking in this area.

"What's my role in all these?" That's my question and I know that God will grant me the clarity that I need in due course.

In the meantime...the most important task is to pray and abide in Him.

Super tired...I just need to rest

Dunno why...but I am just feeling so drained emotionally and spiritually. Falling ill physically too..think I am just too tired.

Need a rest..a good rest.

Time to stop thinking... =)

Goodnight

SUPER High.. Adrenaline rush haha

Wah..was super high towards the end of the day..dunno why =) Maybe cos it's deepavali tomorrow..but the happiness within me was so overwhelming that I felt like telling the whole world how I was feeling... crazy right? hahahaha =)

Thank God for Marriage time tonight!

Left work at 655pm

Reached home by 715pm and met hubby

Changed into T-shirt and Jeans and got out of the home by about 735pm

Took 105 to Orchard and reached by about 8pm

Had dinner at Food Republique at Wisma Atria - Super nice Hokkien Mee and Guo1 Tie1

Went around shopping for a birthday present - and I got $52.00 worth of accessories!

Left Orchard at 10pm - took 105

Home sweet home by 1017pm! Bingo!

It's really great to stay so near to town!

"It's a happy day! And I thank God for the weather! It's a happy day and I'm singing for my Lord!"

Yippee!!!

He Lifted my soul...=p

Started the day feeling so depressed... so negative etc.

But God reminded me that such days will be over and it is not beneficial to dwell on all the negative emotions.

Told myself I should just focus on my work during the day and cast the negativity aside. Thank God... as the day went by, I felt better.

My new boss told me not to work late.. and encouraged me to leave early. So ya..I left office just in time to reach home to receive M & H who came by for dinner and a good chat.

Both of us enjoyed having M & H over...it was just wonderful being able to share our lives and experiences. And I am glad God's working.

All in all..it's yet another wonderful day.

I am reminded of a song:

"He's turned my mourning, into dancing again, He's lifted my sorrows;
I can't stay silent, I must sing for His joy has come!"

So tired...but thank God =p

Surprise surprise..guess what! God has blessed us with wonderful neighbours directly beside us. They are a young couple..about our age..Christians...and actively involved in youth ministry too! We were all so excited during our short chat yesterday. =)Thank God...His plans are always the best.

We had a good time having JYF over at our place yesterday.. =) After that, WG's NTU friends and CG came over.. I had so much fun just getting to know them...and I know WG really enjoyed meeting up with his NTU friends. =p

Feeling rather tired now especially after ministry this morning..but I know that God will restore me in His own time...=) Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.

btw, I think that the sermon by Rev Chua was GREAT!

Okie..got to get some rest and be ready for a new week at work!

Simplicity...faith like a child

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." Prov 3:5-6

"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Marry has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." Luke 10:41-42

The desires of my heart lately:

1. To be a good wife...

2. To be a good daughter and daughter-in-law...

3. To be a good servant of God...

4. To be a good employee...

5. To be a good friend...

But I have lost the simple faith of a child in the midst of fulfilling all those desires.

I have been trying too hard to make the right decisions, to keep my priorities, to prevent myself from falling short of anyones's expectations etc. Sometimes, its just so hard to fulfill every single role to perfection and it's hard to make decisions. I have been too distracted by trying to get things right.

I can imagine God looking at me and urging me to stop trying so hard. At the end of the day, His love for me is not dependent on any of that. Why be a Martha and tire myself out? It's unnecessary.

To rest in His love and to acknowledge Him in all my ways..that's sufficient. I hope I will stop focusing on whether I have made the right decisions, but whether I have acknowledged Him in every decision.

God sends me the same message time and again, "Your world need not be so complicated...my little girl, stop thinking so much =)"

I LOVE MY CARE GROUP!

Just came back from cg at Yisheng's place...I just love my caregroup so much.

Been a little discouraged lately over some issues which have been burdening me..but God really encouraged me through the time of fellowship with my dearest brothers and sisters today.

Last week, we were sharing about the choice of a new cgl for year 2008...no one was ready to respond then, so we took a week to pray about it. Praise the Lord! He worked in the heart of our dear brother who responded in obedience today.

Our current cgls KS and YN told us to pray and then to write on a slip of paper what God had impressed upon our hearts regarding ministry in cg next year. Praise God! everyone gladly wrote about how we would like to contribute to cg next year. And..our dearest brother who responded in obedience said "YES" to being a cgl!

Thank God..we have a new CGL who has been called by Himself. We are certain that God will bless our leaders in 2008 especially since all of us have expressed our full support for them.

I am encouraged because I know God's presence was and will continue to be with this caregroup...

I just love my cg so so so much...haha =)

Baggages and God's healing

Din know that we can carry our baggages from one workplace to another.

I have been so accustomed to some negative things in the previous workplace that I actually find it difficult to embrace the good stuff in the new firm now.

No place is perfect...But I thank God for this new phase in this new firm.

Step by step..by His grace...I am still learning how not to carry burdens which are not mine and live in freedom.

Do I believe Him with all my heart?

Realised today that I have not been recognising certain hurts in my life.

But thank God for revealing everything today. That's the first step to healing.. I know that..

I find myself having trouble believing the following truths at some point or another:

1. That God delights in me and is pleased with me

2. That God will never leave me nor forsake me

3. That God wants to bless and to prosper me.

4. That God is perfectly fine with me =)

Been struggling to believe the above truths since young... I know I have grown and its been getting easier but the struggles have not disappeared.

But I thank God.. because He never fails to challenge me to BELIEVE and to hold on to my anchor verse:

1 JOHN 4:18

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."

Now my heart is once again freed to say that God LOVES me....

Blogging from office..haha

Haha..for once, I can blog from my office computer.. but after office hours lah.

My new firm is above my dad's firm..

My new boss is a nice person.. not a slave driver though I believe I have quite some work to do.

My new computer is an ACER laptop which is pretty cool.. with webcam installed but I won't use it lor..

My room, unlike the one in my previous firm, does not have a view but it's pretty cosy lah

I have my own HP printer..

eh.. what else.. All in all seems ok for now.

A few trials coming up though.. exciting cos I get to learn and see my boss in action.. but the preparation could be tiring.

BUt that's the road to discovering whether God wants me to be a litigator! haha

leaving office soon..

Joyful! Joyful! =)

Friday was my last day in Yeo-Leong & Peh..I was so sad I wanted to cry. I will miss my colleagues who are so lovable. Afterall, they have been so much a part of my life for the past 2 years. I hope I can keep in contact with them..may not be easy cos they are at Tanjong Pagar and I am at Raffles Place.

Starting to work in the new firm on wednesday. Not sure how that's going to turn out but just trusting God for now. =) I know that by His grace, I will be able to face all the challenges ahead of me. I just hope that the working environment allows me to continue serving God actively.

YF came over to our place yesterday. Wenguang and myself had such a great time conducting the workshop. It's the first time we led a workshop together as a married couple. We had to learn how to coordinate with each other. Thankfully, we managed to do so without much conflict =) haha.. topic of the BGR workshop was "UNDERSTANDING AND CELEBRATING DIFFERENCES".

CG came over in the evening too. As I always say...I love my CG! We had such a good time of sharing and everyone was very open. I really thank God for His presence in the group. Moving on to a new year, we just hope to see each others' faces every week and we want to do much more in God's kingdom as a CG.

All in all, I woke up this morning with a very grateful heart. Serving God brings great joy to my soul, always!

Xie Look-alike meter

Yam & Kel - happily married

1.5 hours in the kitchen

haha! Guess what? I spent 1.5hours in the kitchen this evening just to whip up a decent meal for Wenguang. Thank God, although I took really long to cook the dishes, they turned out pretty good. At least Wenguang found them so hahaa...

I cooked:

1. Potatoe and pork in soya sauce (din realise wg loves soya sauce stuff until tonight)

2. Brocolli fried with garlic

3. Steamed sea bass (is that how you spell it? haha) - turned out a little salty though

Well..I think I made a mess out of the kitchen, used so many plates, so many pots etc haha..for just 3 dishes. And I din get my sequence right. I was so nervous that I decided to steam the fish first, that really should have been the last dish. Ah well..I had fun..and now wenguang is cleaning up voluntarily after a good meal.

Oh yes...haha..still learning how to cook brown rice..how much water to add..eh..the rice tonight turned out quite bad. In my own words just now, 3.5 points out of 10. haha..wenguang equated them to peanuts..can you believe it! haha.

The day started out with much heaviness and negative emotions..as usual. I had the "I don't feel like working" emotion. Weekends are always filled with so much activities with brother and sisters..so enjoyable.. Kel & HY got married on saturday! We had so much fun helping them. WG was carpark ic and I was usher ic..so so fun!

But the prayer time early in the morning changed my heart. I know that God wants me to rely on him daily for strength, joy, peace, love etc. Work is where God puts me through the greatest test. Do I still love Him and glorify Him even in the midst of work?

I know why I am still in the workforce..cos that's where God knows I will have the greatest difficulty in living like a real christian. Training ground...=) Until the day God calls me out of the workforce, I shall be strong and courageous and live each day in His abundant promises!

Almost forgot..Real cooking for the 1st time last thurs

Hehe..cooked something for dinner last thurs while Wenguang was preparing for worship (noodles with carrot, white radish, onions, potato,corn). Turned out pretty good.. haha, was quite an encouraging attempt I must say. I prayed and asked God to make it a success. He answered my prayer haha..God cares for every little detail of my life =) Of course cannot compare to my mum's standard haha..but I found it quite fun.

As I mentioned earlier, I prepared soup for the CG..while preparing, came across a heart-shaped potato..looks really cute! =)

FOOD! CG cooking day =)

Hehe.. =) had a lot of fun today.

Accomplished quite a lot of stuff

First thing in the morning - both WG and myself did ENEMA

Next - Breakfast and grocery shopping

Next - Prayer and praise with WG

Next - WG did house chores and I prepared ingredients for soup

Next - I went to JYF and WG went to YF

Next - came back at 6pm cos CG coming over for dinner and I had to get the soup done

Not many people came over for CG, just Trish, Kaisiong and Peter but we had a very cosy dinner and a good time! hahaha

Trish and myself were in the kitchen and of course she did more of the cooking haha! I just cooked soup and rice. We had a lot of fun and the food turned out delicious! YIPEE

The photos shall speak for themselves. I just love CG time so so so so much.. ! Love ya guys!

Sweet honeymoon!

Thought I should share a bit about our honeymoon =)

It was a sweet honeymoon although we both fell ill during the trip... it's the first time we spend so much time together.. thank God we did not have any conflict on the trip...largely harmonious..maybe cos we were on a holiday.

We made some new discoveries about each other.. interesting ones.. well we will just continue getting to know each other more and more day by day.

I was personally reminded to LOVE on the trip. God commands us to love one another...that entails being kind, patient, loving, gentle etc..it was sweet.

We enjoyed spending time with Tim, Ann and Ian...we have never stayed under the same roof afterall.

We enjoyed the road trip, when it was just the 2 of us figuring out how to get to our destination using the interstate highways in US haha..=) Got lost at times but not too bad.. Wenguang adjusted well to the left-hand drive so he drove most of the time. We drove more than 1000miles on the trip. Quite a bit huh.

There's just so much to share.. guess the pictures would speak for themselves..

We are Back!

Some picture we took, more to come!

Honeymoon in NY...day 3

It's 9am in the morning here.. =) The weather's superb..natural air-con everywhere. Tim and Ann have been taking good care of us.. they have always been our angels.. in everywhere. We just have loads to talk about everyday and it's neverending.. haha..from our own lives, to church in Singapore, to church in NY, to Ian...etc..

I am so happy to be here..=) It's been relaxing..we have not be travelling a great deal..cos of jet lag..but we are adjusting well. Food's good too. Will start to walk around a lot more today. Went to the Metropolitan Museum and St. Patrick's cathedral yesterday...Starbucks here is much more affordable than Starbucks in Singapore.

Encountered God in a very deep and personal way yesterday at Brooklyn Tabernacle's prayer meeting.. God was really moving in the church... it was obvious....the songs, the prayers, the message..it was just amazing.. and God heard my cry.."I want to know you in a deeper way and I want to encounter You once again..." Hard to share everything over the blog.. but it's an experience that I will remember for the rest of my life.

We are looking forward to our trip to Acadia National Park.. haha....really..going to watch a Broadway show tonight.. hopefully we can catch Phantom or Beauty and the Beast.

The Lord is good.. and His love endures forever.....=)

Internet at my new place =)

HAhaa... Internet's up at long last..WEnguang's long awaited internet.. hahah.. We don't have TV at home.. so I won't get to be addicted to TV programmes.. but we have INTERNET!!! so err.. Wenguang will have much more entertainment at home..

I like my new place...home sweet home.. many people think its weird that we don't have a TV at home.. cos almost every household in Singapore has at least 1 TV set.. but we don't find it weird at all.. in fact, we find that we spend much more time communicating with each other.. we just sit at the dining table/sofa and start talking... it's been good.

Gone through quite a bit of ups and downs lately.. but thank God that He continues to assure me of His presence and love... the love that is unfailing and unconditional... the love that is steadfast.. the love that can move mountains, the love that allows me to stand firm in all circumstances... the love that helps me pick up when I fall.. the love that reminds me that everything is in His control and that everything can be redeemed... Many things are beyond us actually...and we need our Lord to give us strength to carry on.

Been learning what is means to worship God in all circumstances..it's an attitude that looks beyond life's circumstances... I have been thinking... all of us have to be forward looking.. some things are just meant to go, there is a time for everything... nothing should stop us from looking forward and giving our best to what we can change and do... if I choose to wallow in the circumstances and ask "why", would that bring me anywhere? No.. it wouldn't...

I guess the SERENITY PRAYER applies to my life at this point..

Lord, grant be the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

The courage to change the things that I can,

and the wisdom to know the difference.

People do hurt us, they may not know they do... but how do we face our hurts? Do we stop loving because we feel hurt? Do we become bitter because we feel hurt? Nope..God's love surpasses everything... We love because He first loved us... If His love is steadfast and unfailing.. we are to show that kind of love to all who are around us whether they have hurt us or not.

Lord, you know my heart...and that's enough.. =)

Ups and downs..but PRAISE THE LORD

IT's been a while since I last put up a blog post.. why?...BUSY with wedding prep and work...and I have no internet at my new place at the moment.

On leave today.. so i thought I should put up a new post..

Burnt out from work...terribly burnt out. every morning I dread pulling myself out of bed to work. I think about work before I sleep and first thing in the morning..that's terrible huh.. I think about work all the time..almost going nuts from the stress.

I just long for a good break... well i thank God for the break today. I realised that I have been jeopardizing my relationship with God.. This lifestyle is BAD...very bad..What should I do? hmm...a job offer just came in recently..all of a sudden. A pretty good offer I think..but I have not decided whether I should make the move.

Never knew what it's like to change job.. haha..but well..got to experience it someday ya. But this experience of burning out made me realise a number of things. I have come to re-evaluate what I want in life and my priorities. I don't want to have a lifestyle that jeopardizes my relationship with God, with hubby, with family and friends. We are made for WORK and RELATIONSHIPS... We can't just allow work to overwhelm us.

In the midst of this struggle.. I still want to thank God for being by my side.. He has never forsaken me.. though I might have forsaken Him. I would have died from this burn-out if not for His Word which nourishes my tired soul.

"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He leads me beside green pastures and beside quiet waters. He restores my soul..." (Psalm 23)

I know God is delivering me and healing me now.. His Word has brought my new life....I just love Psalms..

Now I understand why God says that we must meditate on the Book of the Law day and night..Cos if we don't, we will meditate on many other things..negative thoughts..worries etc...thoughts which would never glorify God.

I am still on the road to recovery and I am so glad I am married to a great and godly man who loves me whole-heartedly....everyday...

"All things work for the good of those who love God..."

God loves me and Wenguang... His blessings are countless.. we can testify to that.. haha...there's just so much to share.. =)

A wonderful Sunday

Hee =p Very grateful to God for the good time during service.. really enjoyed working with the worship team..the music was good..things flowed, was encouraged by positive feedback. All glory and praises to God!

God affirmed me once again of His presence and His goodness in my life. Had a rather difficult week actually, had many doubts regarding my walk with God, but He really spoke to my heart yesterday.

Had a good time with CG during lunch after service... we already had a good time together at Eleen's place the day before.. but well..good times are never enough. I just love my caregroup.. briefing them about the wedding day was like conducting a big committee meeting hahaha =)but it was really fun!

After that, WG and I headed for IMM.. intended to just look for our bed...but God led us into FURNITURE CLUB and we ended up getting a package at a rather affordable price.. not bad I must say..Mattress, bed-frame, sofa set, dining set, coffee table, extra sofa covers..hahaha.. we were very happy when we made the decision to get the package. Save some time, good quality and service.

Thank God for leading us every step of the way in our wedding preparations.. we do find it a hassle at times, but God has been making things much easier for us. No complaints =p

Hehe.. there are still outstanding things to settle.. got to get our refrigerator, washing machine, dryer etc.. haha maybe another good package will come along the way? hahah

Learning to enjoy the process

Wah...it's really not easy starting a family. I find myself forced to move out of my comfort zone. Been thinking about a lot more things...more responsibilities etc. The matrimonial home, family planning, work, finances etc. Now I understand why people say that one must be prepared to move into marriage. It's about maturing into adulthood and independence.

Got to say bye bye to the comfortable life at home =) haha...Have always been well taken care of by mummy, now I have to start learning how to manage my own home. Hmm... well...I just have to rely on God's grace.

It's been fun looking around for household items and thinking about the design of our kitchen cabinets etc. Our flat's pretty small..but that means household chores will be more manageable. haha =p Thank God for the flat! It's really a huge gift from God..
The thought of it being God's gift to us really adds to our joy!

Thank God we started with our preparations early... although we still have quite a bit to do, it's rather manageable so far. I hope I won't have to fret too much about the wedding 2 weeks before the actual date.

Many people constantly remind me to enjoy the process of preparing for marriage and not be bothered by the hassle. It can be hard at times, but I do want to enjoy this process with my future hubby.

I am grateful for all our wedding helpers! =) It really helps to delegate the tasks haha.. helps me relieve some stress!

We shall work towards a low-stress or no-stress wedding!

God's grace when I don't deserve it

Yeah! Experienced God again today! He showered me with His grace once again...just when I thought all was lost...God solved my problem when I don't deserve it. He is just amazing.

Lately, God has been challenging me to trust Him with my heart. His promise to me this week, "I will never leave you nor forsake you." The promise has always been lingering in my head but God wants me to believe with my heart...I know God has been reaching to my heart over the past few days. He wants me to know that He is really walking with me every single day, without fail=)

This faith journey is really exciting...the working world can cause one to lose the innocent and simple faith easily but if we fix our eyes on God...everything will change for the better.

All in all.. I am really grateful for all that He has done for me.

What about you?

Honeymoon in New York & IMPERFECTIONS =p

Wow.. had a tough time trying to get tickets for honeymoon.

Firstly, it was hard trying to convince my boss that I got to be out of office in September. It doesn't help that it clashes with my colleague's maternity leave. I still managed to get my leave in the end...so thank God.

But it was not really a smooth process trying to get tickets...we wanted to leave Singapore on 31 August...and then return to Singapore on 15 September. If we do that, Tim, Ann and Ian would be around for the full trip... and we will have 12 days to travel around (11 days leave from work). That would be ideal but life is not always perfect (as we should know by now)...

I was rather upset when we could get the tickets and we found out that we might end up paying more for the same dates..but thank God.. an opening came...9 September flight.. return to Singapore on 23 September.. still 11 days leave but 11 days to travel around...Tim, Ann and Ian will only be around for 4 - 5 days. BUT THE TICKETS ARE STILL THE CHEAPEST! hahaha.. NOt as perfect, but we decided to book them anyway!

What lessons have I learnt in this process:

1. God may not always give us what is PERFECT but He will provide what is best in the circumstances

2. Be patient and surrender all plans to God

3. Life is full of imperfections, got to be flexible

I have been learning to accept imperfections at work etc...imperfections everywhere in fact..it's tough cos I am such a PERFECTIONIST! I jump at imperfections, negative emotions such as frustration, impatience etc overwhelm me so easily. Why... because I have not learnt to accept that life will be never be as perfect as I want it to be ... Man are sinners.. where there is sin, there will never be perfection.

Handling a case now, it's messy cos imperfect people created the mess. Long story.. but well..thank God for giving me the strength to move forward.

Have you learnt to deal with imperfections?

Food tasting =)

Hee hee =p just came back from wedding banquet food tasting.

Forgot to tell my 2 sisters about it and Wenjin's overseas...6 of us ended up eating food for 10. We had to pack the food home of course.

Thank God the time was pretty good. Our parents get along pretty well...that's a blessing I must say.

Thank God I managed to find a dear friend to help me with decor on the wedding day! Phew...a big load off my mind!

It's wonderful to know that there are many friends who are more than willing to help out on the actual day. I really want to be able to relax on the actual day especially since the timetable will be very very packed.

My dear helpers, I trust you guys to know what's best ya! =) hahaha

2plus months away...pretty soon huh! The good news is...we have just reactivated Project Getting Married..so to friends who worry about our marriage prep: We are really really starting to prepare.

All praises be to our good and gracious Lord!

I was really ill on sat..thought I would not be able to lead worship and bible study on sunday..but guess what? Our good Lord heard my prayers and removed the cold from me. God really cares.

Workload's still pretty heavy...keep thinking about taking a long break...would that be possible? Hmm...

Many friends who usually lunch with me are either leaving the profession altogether or moving to Raffles place..sob sob sob =( Looks like I will have to start finding new lunch kakis!

Okie dokie! Time to zzzzz......one of the best times of the day.

A tiring week..

Been physically quite ill this week...rather weak I must say. But I think I am starting to recover. Slightly better today.

Worship prac was good... Worked with wonderful musicians...Kelly, Weiyang, Junxian and Michel. You guys are really cool! Really gifted I must say... the music was good...I loved it!

Time with brothers and sisters is always refreshing. Looking forward to the weekend. Looking forward to some good rest..(as usual) haha... =)

Lots of people have been asking me about wedding prep.. haha..haven't been doing much actually...but well, we will get started again!

Thank God! HDB sent us a letter informing us that we will be receiving the keys to our flat soon. NOt much time for renovation I must say. 2 months..hmm...is it possible? Just praying to our good Lord that everything will be in good time...then we don't have to move here and there and everywhere.

God is good all the time!

A meaningful reflection

=) It's been a restful week so far...not because I have no work to do but because I have learnt to take things more lightly. What's the point of getting myself all stressed up...there is much more to life ya =) Thank God..

Had a good time with English worship team today at Iris' place. Sometimes we just need the time to hang out together, get to know each others' daily lives..connect with each other. Afterall, ministry is not just about getting things done, it's about loving God and loving one another. We shared about our hopes for worship team...I hope we will see our individual dreams come through as we put in our little efforts here and there.

Felt quite sad about something though... On my way home, I realised that I have been neglecting the most important person in my life because of the lack of time and deliberate effort. I was reminded once again that all relationships need maintenance. Relationships build through time and meaningful communication. Life in Singapore is just too hectic and it's so easy to neglect the important people around us. But I like what Kelly said today, "We can make a choice!"

It's a good wake up call for myself. I shan't take things for granted...

Everyone of us has deeper needs..spiritual and emotional. It's easy to overlook them because we are too caught up with daily tasks. The more insensitive we are, the more hurts we cause to those we love.

Love cannot be felt without concrete actions... =) Time to do something about it!

A meaningful reflection for the day...

Slow down the heart beat...

Lately, I have been working on a "Slow down the heart beat" project. Basically, I have been learning to relax and to work at a much slower pace. Afterall, career can never be as important as my health right?

Thank God, it's working... I feel much better now. The challenge now is to keep a low-stress lifestyle as much as I can. Haven't been eating well though... been eating quite a bit with colleagues hahaha..got to start eating grass again! haha

Been thinking quite a bit about the path ahead... should I continue to work as a lawyer? Or should I do something else? Time flies, I am hitting my one year mark as a lawyer...hmmm...what lies ahead of me? The hectic lifestyle is one big problem...but I do find the job meaningful.

Eh...guess I will just continue to pray and ask the Lord to direct my steps. Afterall, His plans are always higher than mine.

Moving into married life soon.. err..that's going to be another major adjustment...why do we have to start thinking so much more as we grow older? haha =) Why can't life be simpler and easier?

Ah well...shan't think too much, afterall, his grace is more than sufficient!

A STEP AT A TIME!

Mission trip was AWESOME!

Just one word to describe the mission trip...AWESOME!!!!

We met so many people on the trip and quite a number of them made the most important decision of their life! It's the first time I saw so many fruits borne out of a mission trip. It's really quite a number... hahahaha =)

The trip was really fun because of the people. Everyone on the team was really really really nice...we lived in perfect harmony over the past few days.

I stayed with 3 ladies (who have teenage children)...and it was quite fun! They took good care of me and I really enjoyed their company.

Uncle Tianjing gave me timely advice on my health and that sort of saved me...Thank God for the timely healing.

I also had a very good time working with Yongsen, Fenfen, Yingliang, Shuqing, Kelly & Justin! They are so so so funny...really a crazy bunch of people (including JUSTIN hahahaha!)...but also very fervent when it comes to God's work. They added so much joy and laughter to the trip.

This time round, I really witnessed the fact that God has given S-Word many gifts. Although everyone's job scope was different, everything pieced together like a nice jigsaw.

God has been WITH US! We all know that and experienced the joy of working together with Him to touch lives.

Well.. I managed to get some rest for my physical body and nourishment for my tired soul! All praises be to our MIGHTY KING!

I want to and I believe I will make a trip back there again... coz nothing beats knowing that you are doing what is most important in God's kingdom. The harvest is plentiful but workers are few.

I love S-Word! I LOVE JESUS!

He is the ultimate judge...

I learnt something new again from my 2nd trial as a lawyer.

From the first trial, I learnt that God is with me in my work and that with courage and faith, I can see justice done in a case.

Now...the 2nd trial...the outcome was not what I hoped for. The person I was doing my best to help eventually lost...I thought I would be utterly disappointed with God, but no...I prayed that I will surrender the outcome to Him.

Although the final outcome was not what I hoped for, when I spoke to my client and heard his encouragement, I felt appreciated. He did not scold me for not winning the case, neither did he sound very negative. Instead, he thanked me for fighting all the way.

So what did I learn? I learnt that there will not be perfect justice in this world because it is made up of imperfect humans. Judges and lawyers are imperfect and do not have perfect knowledge. How should I perceive my profession? What does God require of me? How should I walk along?

To do justice, to love mercy, to walk humby with my God.

I cannot promise anyone justice, but I can fight for justice! haha =)

Oh well...more lessons to come. I know that the ultimate Judge of all knows everything. One may escape in this lifetime but definitely not in the lifetime to come.

Apart from all that, I made some boos boos here and there lah..super obvious that I am new. So err...got to learn lah!

Still packing at this hour when I am flying off tomorrow morning..crazy..

I NEED SOME GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD REST...

May Justice Be Done!

Hmm...having my 2nd trial tomorrow.

The prayer of my heart: O Lord, please let justice be done.

The fact that a case is small does not mean that justice is not important.

Every case means a lot to God because He cares about justice. We are called to fight..big and small cases alike.

God cares for the poor and the oppressed.

There is only so much I can do in this imperfect world. God help me.

Awesome!

11am - 230pm : Selected photos at YH & XR's studio & discussed some stuff with LB regarding the flat

3pm : Reached T21 and joined JYF leaders for their gathering

330pm - 6pm : JYF program (FABULOUS I must say!!!!)

630pm - 9pm: Fun time with cg at Bukit Timah Market and Venezia =)

Finally home.. tired but experienced God again today.

I really enjoyed JYF today. The DVD message was good.. listening to the JYFers share deeply was good.. sharing with them my own thoughts was good.. I am glad God has preserved for Himself a group of junior youths with great potential to do great things for Him in S-Word.

To my dear jyfers: You guys never fail to be my source of encouragement every week.

I was reminded that GOD IS really BIG, HUGE, GREAT etc...and we are SUPER small, tiny etc. Just look at the universe...look at creation.. we are not that great afterall although we seem to think that the world revolves around us. Look out there...look further and we will realise that it's all about God.

I just want to rest in all that He is...In His presence, everything else fades away...everything pales in comparison.

Time with cg was good.. we meet every week without fail..and I never fail to enjoy the times we share.

Thank God for Wenguang...my soulmate, my best friend, my co-worker, my accountability partner, my best companion...although we are both so busy and tired, he will never fail to stand by me. Looking forward to a new phase in about 3 months time..=) With God, I am sure we will only grow deeper in love.

Time for some silence and solitude before going to bed....zzzzzzzzzzz

What does it mean to seek Him?

Just came back home from Esplanade...had a good time chilling out with Pauline. We went to Deb Fung's concert. She writes really meaningful songs...songs with depth. I think she's a really sweet girl..she shared genuinely with the audience. She's a good testimony of Christ.

It was a good time chilling out cos it's been a very hectic week. Many ups and downs at work.. heart attacks.. ah...hard to share the long story over the blog..but well.. some huge problem cropped up at work.. not resolved yet...the consequences can be really huge or can be small..depending on many uncertain factors.

But the BIG problem drove me quite crazy yesterday. I guess it is the uncertainty of not knowing what lies ahead..the fears that I will have to face the worst outcome. Well.. I tend to think negatively rather easily..that's why I worry....

BUTTT...because of this, God has been teaching me a new lesson. When I reach my end (and I really mean my end because there is NOTHING I can do about circumstances..nothing that can be controlled in the human realm), what do I do? Who do I turn to?

I had doubts...can i really trust God? Will He ensure that things turn out fine for me? Will He give me a miracle? Many such questions bugged me...essentially I struggled believing in Him. For a while I could not stop worrying..I was robbed of my peace in Him.

Wenguang reminded me, God is good, God loves me, God is in control. I found it hard to let the truths sink initially.. but I prayed and God strengthened me with courage to walk on. Wenguang also reminded me that we should not focus on the circumstances but on who He is. That set me thinking....Can I just TRUST HIM?

Read My Utmost for His Highest this morning...I was directly challenged by God..."Am I seeking Him for His blessings, miracles, help etc. or am I seeking Him?" There is a difference. Only then did I realise that God is helping me re-learn what it means to surrender and trust Him.

Oh well..circumstances have not changed...but I am really learning to TRUST HIM.

Thank God for giving me strength and courage to face each day, whatever happens, He is with me.

"You will keep in perfect peace, he whose mind is steadfast because he trusts in You."

Life's been hectic..work has been hectic...but I am looking forward to the rest over the short trip next week. I shall now enjoy every moment of rest.

We can experience God in all circumstances, if only we seek Him =)

Life's exciting because we are ever learning more about God and ourselves.

WEDDING PREP - Tasks? or something more...

Wow...wedding prep can be so taxing...the gowns, the decor, the pictures, the buffet, etc. Just finished photoshoot on wed but it was fun coz we got to spend a full day with old time friends..Yihao and Xiuru. The weather was really good, all praises be to God! To all who prayed for us...THANKS!

I could not get used to my look that day cos I dun usually put on make-up. Thought I looked really weird haha...although they were all trying to convince me that it will look ok on pictures. Oh well...the most impt thing is that the final product will be good cos ONE EYE CLICK is doing it for us!

Was just talking to Wenguang yesterday at the 1st marriage prep class...We both hope to spend more time COMMUNICATING (first lesson and the most important one)...there is really no point getting busy with the tasks and forgetting to put in time to prepare the relationship for a new phase.

Our biggest enemy now is BUSYNESS! no time. Time's the most important element in communication, no time no communication, that simple. Hope we start finding time to do that...well..we had a good time having prata at 1130pm at Jalan Kayu! More to come I hope.

I am physically tired...and I miss God.. got to go up the Mountain again.. =)