Experienced my first leg cramp in my right leg during my sleep last night :( sob sob.
Hubby had to help me sooth the pain...
I really hope it doesnt recur, of even if it does, not too frequently. That feeling's not too great.
In my 33rd week now. Baby's growth is seemingly exponential :)
Doc says I can deliver anytime from 38th to 42nd week. That's not too far away.
Sometimes, the thought of it being capable of happening anytime freaks me out. haha.. But one thing for sure, I will stop going to court at some point, lest it happens while I am in court.
Getting down to massive shopping, planning, reading up, packing etc...got to get into full steam for preparations. Also working out future work arrangements with my boss.
Thankfully, he said to me yesterday, that I can take 3 months' of maternity leave and stagger the balance. That to me is comforting.. cos 3 months is really preferable.
Well apart from all the baby stuff, am sorting some unrelated matters within myself... makes me a little out of sorts lately... but well, I am hoping to get through them soon...and move on.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
"You Are Captivating, Celebrating a Mother's Heart" by Stasi Eldredge
Received this book from a dear mentor :)
I love it. Really...although there aren't many pages to the book.
It's written beautifully. Every chapter, though short, captures the heart of it all.
She quoted a passage from a book, and I find the passage really insightful.
"To be Queen Elizabeth within a definite area, deciding sales, banquets, labors, and holidays; to be Whitely within a certain area, providing toys, boots, cakes, and books; to be Aristotle within a certain area, teaching morals, manners, theology, and hygiene; I can understand how this might exhaust the mind, but I cannot imagine how it could narrow it. How can it be a large career to tell other people's children about the Rule of Three, and a small career to tell one's own children about the universe? How can it be broad to be the same thing to everyone and narrow to be everything to someone? No, a woman's function is laborious, but because it is gigantic, not because it is minute.
- What's Wrong with the World"
(My favourite lines are in bold)
To the mothers out there who have given up so many things so that they could be everything to their children..."You have done well."
To the mothers who struggle with how the world perceives full-time homemakers, "You have made such a beautiful choice."
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
A bitter sour taste
Had another case today. For various reasons, it was settled without going for trial. But...it leaves me with a bitter sour taste.
Can't go into the details.. but suffice to say, I feel that justice was not quite done in the case. And a part of me wonders whether I could have done more to ensure that justice was done.
Argh! Lawyers are to be advocates of justice...Christian lawyers must definitely advocate justice...but sometimes, the reality of the imperfect world and imperfect systems makes it tough to achieve justice in every case.
And I wonder...what can I do? What should I do? What could I have done? etc........ :(
Can't go into the details.. but suffice to say, I feel that justice was not quite done in the case. And a part of me wonders whether I could have done more to ensure that justice was done.
Argh! Lawyers are to be advocates of justice...Christian lawyers must definitely advocate justice...but sometimes, the reality of the imperfect world and imperfect systems makes it tough to achieve justice in every case.
And I wonder...what can I do? What should I do? What could I have done? etc........ :(
But, no matter what...one thing is certain, God will eventually judge everyone on earth...and justice will definitely be achieved.
Hebrews 9:27-28
27Just as man is destined to die once, and after that to face judgment, 28so Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people; and he will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but to bring salvation to those who are waiting for him.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Adjustments
Had a fruitful but tiring weekend. Think it's been like that for 3 weekends.
Was super tired after antenatal classes yesterday...I felt so drained. That set me thinking about whether I should start to adjust my lifestyle a little.
Decided to scale down on ministries in church from now on... guess it's time to do so since I am already 8 months' pregnant. As much as I would love to be moving around a lot, doing the usual stuff etc, think I really need to scale back to ensure that I get sufficient rest and baby gets sufficient rest too. There's a time for everything...
It's also time to focus on preparations for baby's arrival, whether physically, emotionally, mentally or spiritually...
I am thankful that God's been very very very assuring... despite the fact that I have been unable to spend meaningful time with Him due to the fatigue. I am reminded of this verse in Psalm 103,
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
It's been good.... This pregnancy would not be the same, without God's grace and providence everyday. :)
God is good...All the time!
Was super tired after antenatal classes yesterday...I felt so drained. That set me thinking about whether I should start to adjust my lifestyle a little.
Decided to scale down on ministries in church from now on... guess it's time to do so since I am already 8 months' pregnant. As much as I would love to be moving around a lot, doing the usual stuff etc, think I really need to scale back to ensure that I get sufficient rest and baby gets sufficient rest too. There's a time for everything...
It's also time to focus on preparations for baby's arrival, whether physically, emotionally, mentally or spiritually...
I am thankful that God's been very very very assuring... despite the fact that I have been unable to spend meaningful time with Him due to the fatigue. I am reminded of this verse in Psalm 103,
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
It's been good.... This pregnancy would not be the same, without God's grace and providence everyday. :)
God is good...All the time!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Baby updates :)
Saw the gynae this morning.
:) She said the baby's growing well...doc said she was practising how to breath. I think we saw some pumping in the lungs (hmm.. but then again, I don't think she is supposed to be using her lungs now...hm..). We saw her face as well.. and she was opening and closing her mouth when we saw her. haha
Circumference of her head and waistline both about 26++cm if I am not wrong..hee. Her weight now, according to doc is about 1.64kg. Doc said she won't be a 4kg baby but definitely will not be under 3kg as well. haha :p
Thank God for His faithfulness and grace throughout this process. He is indeed the author and sustainer of this little life.
Doc said I need not take leave prior to giving birth...should maximise my leave thereafter if possible. She also strongly encouraged total breastfeeding, which is what I would definitely attempt to do. But am praying that it would be possible and that it would be a smooth process.
Well.. on my end.. I am now about 65.8kg! SAME as hubby! haha.. that's eh.. about 11kg of weight gain so far. Nurse still reminded me to watch my carbo intake lah.. but doc said actually it's ok haha!
The funny thing is, hubby has been gaining quite a bit of weight...I think it's largely because of me. He joins me in my cravings... helps me eat so that I don't eat too much. All these has resulted in his weight gain. The worst part is this, someone told us that husbands usually gain quite a bit but have no avenue to lose the weight gain, unlike mothers who can lose through breastfeeding.. hahaha...so guess he's got to start worrying about watching that weight-gain.
:) She said the baby's growing well...doc said she was practising how to breath. I think we saw some pumping in the lungs (hmm.. but then again, I don't think she is supposed to be using her lungs now...hm..). We saw her face as well.. and she was opening and closing her mouth when we saw her. haha
Circumference of her head and waistline both about 26++cm if I am not wrong..hee. Her weight now, according to doc is about 1.64kg. Doc said she won't be a 4kg baby but definitely will not be under 3kg as well. haha :p
Thank God for His faithfulness and grace throughout this process. He is indeed the author and sustainer of this little life.
Doc said I need not take leave prior to giving birth...should maximise my leave thereafter if possible. She also strongly encouraged total breastfeeding, which is what I would definitely attempt to do. But am praying that it would be possible and that it would be a smooth process.
Well.. on my end.. I am now about 65.8kg! SAME as hubby! haha.. that's eh.. about 11kg of weight gain so far. Nurse still reminded me to watch my carbo intake lah.. but doc said actually it's ok haha!
The funny thing is, hubby has been gaining quite a bit of weight...I think it's largely because of me. He joins me in my cravings... helps me eat so that I don't eat too much. All these has resulted in his weight gain. The worst part is this, someone told us that husbands usually gain quite a bit but have no avenue to lose the weight gain, unlike mothers who can lose through breastfeeding.. hahaha...so guess he's got to start worrying about watching that weight-gain.
Monday, February 09, 2009
Busy weekend :)
Had a super busy weekend...
Sent my younger sis off in the airport early sat morning...rested a bit at parents' place after that before going to church for JYF and then F3 steamboat. It was a day filled with talking to loads of people.. from family..to the youths in JYF.. to brothers and sisters in F3.. By the time I got home, I felt so so tired and drained...but it was good catching up with some people whom I have not spoken to for a while.
Sunday was another busy day... sang on the worship team...bible class after service.. then hubby and i had to rush down to AMK Hub for our first pre-natal class. I was very tired cos I hardly recuperated from the day before... but the pre-natal class was quite fun and relaxing. We spent quite a bit of time learning antenatal exercises which supposedly helps for natural delivery.. and then went through slides about nutrition, rest etc. Thank God the class was relaxing..
The best time of the day was when the both of us reached home.. showered.. and each spent our personal quiet time with the Lord. My soul was indeed refreshed by a short study of Psalm 25... and I must say that nothing beats being nourished by the truth of God after such a tiring and activity filled weekend.
I must really get down to reading my book Babywise again.. :) and this time round, do all the flagging and highlighting so that I will be able to absorb the information better. It's a great book for mothers-to-be... it provides lots of useful information about feeding, nursing etc.. and gets one more prepared and equipped for the arrival of one's baby.
Back to a week of work.. and i am hoping that by the grace of God.. I will be able to enjoy the week!
Sent my younger sis off in the airport early sat morning...rested a bit at parents' place after that before going to church for JYF and then F3 steamboat. It was a day filled with talking to loads of people.. from family..to the youths in JYF.. to brothers and sisters in F3.. By the time I got home, I felt so so tired and drained...but it was good catching up with some people whom I have not spoken to for a while.
Sunday was another busy day... sang on the worship team...bible class after service.. then hubby and i had to rush down to AMK Hub for our first pre-natal class. I was very tired cos I hardly recuperated from the day before... but the pre-natal class was quite fun and relaxing. We spent quite a bit of time learning antenatal exercises which supposedly helps for natural delivery.. and then went through slides about nutrition, rest etc. Thank God the class was relaxing..
The best time of the day was when the both of us reached home.. showered.. and each spent our personal quiet time with the Lord. My soul was indeed refreshed by a short study of Psalm 25... and I must say that nothing beats being nourished by the truth of God after such a tiring and activity filled weekend.
I must really get down to reading my book Babywise again.. :) and this time round, do all the flagging and highlighting so that I will be able to absorb the information better. It's a great book for mothers-to-be... it provides lots of useful information about feeding, nursing etc.. and gets one more prepared and equipped for the arrival of one's baby.
Back to a week of work.. and i am hoping that by the grace of God.. I will be able to enjoy the week!
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Fight with Zzzz monster startin?
Feeling super super sleepy today.. although I had a 4hour nap yesterday after taking half day leave.. and I slept for 8 hours through the night.
Initially, I thought I may be tired cos I am down with a slight cold...and I lost quite a bit of sleep the night before... but now I am wondering whether it's just part and parcel of the 3rd trimester.
Oh.. i don't like the feeling of having to fight zzzz monster everyday at work...difficult to concentrate at work during such times.. and productivity definitely drops like crazy. Hai....I hope this fighting of zzz monster thing goes away soon.. but if it doesn't, I hope I will persevere till the end without much negative feelings.
I was telling Candra this morning that mummy's going to start sleeping more like she does... haha
Candra's movements are getting bigger..think it's because she has less space inside. Sometimes, I feel like she is rolling around...:) But it's wonderful... though a little painful at times. But she's still cooperative at night.. she does not disrupt my sleep. Moved a lot during the court hearing yesterday.. think they were making too much noise haha.
I hope I will pull through this day just fine... and I will manage to get some work done.
Initially, I thought I may be tired cos I am down with a slight cold...and I lost quite a bit of sleep the night before... but now I am wondering whether it's just part and parcel of the 3rd trimester.
Oh.. i don't like the feeling of having to fight zzzz monster everyday at work...difficult to concentrate at work during such times.. and productivity definitely drops like crazy. Hai....I hope this fighting of zzz monster thing goes away soon.. but if it doesn't, I hope I will persevere till the end without much negative feelings.
I was telling Candra this morning that mummy's going to start sleeping more like she does... haha
Candra's movements are getting bigger..think it's because she has less space inside. Sometimes, I feel like she is rolling around...:) But it's wonderful... though a little painful at times. But she's still cooperative at night.. she does not disrupt my sleep. Moved a lot during the court hearing yesterday.. think they were making too much noise haha.
I hope I will pull through this day just fine... and I will manage to get some work done.
Monday, February 02, 2009
Getting a bit more tiring
In the 3rd trimester already.
It's getting a little bit more tiring... and the stomach's getting heavier.
Still thankful for the energy to go about a little... swim...continue church activities...but many have been asking me when will I be stopping work, ministries etc. Honestly.. I have no clue cos I am a first timer haha :p No clue roughly when the baby will arrive, no clue when I should stop work etc and get more rest... Will see how it goes I guess. What I need to do now is to really start getting down to the packing etc.. to get ready for Candra's birth.
Pre-natal classes starting this coming sunday.. haha..we are a little bit late.. usually people attend the classes earlier.. but I guess better late than never.. haha.. it just means that I will have little time to put some of the practical tips into good use, eg. exercises, massages etc. Ah well... :p
Thank God everything's still going well..sometimes I do still feel anxious and somewhat fearful when I think about the uncertainties ahead.. but God's been reminding me that He is with me and I need not fear..I can put my trust in Him.. who is always in complete control. :) Read some articles in the papers lately about "perinatal anxiety"....I am so thankful that I have God to lean on during this pregnancy... if not, I think I will join the statistics of those who suffer from perinatal anxiety or depression.
Friends, please keep our family in prayers :) that we will continue to depend on God as we journey into a new phase together. Thanks a million!
It's getting a little bit more tiring... and the stomach's getting heavier.
Still thankful for the energy to go about a little... swim...continue church activities...but many have been asking me when will I be stopping work, ministries etc. Honestly.. I have no clue cos I am a first timer haha :p No clue roughly when the baby will arrive, no clue when I should stop work etc and get more rest... Will see how it goes I guess. What I need to do now is to really start getting down to the packing etc.. to get ready for Candra's birth.
Pre-natal classes starting this coming sunday.. haha..we are a little bit late.. usually people attend the classes earlier.. but I guess better late than never.. haha.. it just means that I will have little time to put some of the practical tips into good use, eg. exercises, massages etc. Ah well... :p
Thank God everything's still going well..sometimes I do still feel anxious and somewhat fearful when I think about the uncertainties ahead.. but God's been reminding me that He is with me and I need not fear..I can put my trust in Him.. who is always in complete control. :) Read some articles in the papers lately about "perinatal anxiety"....I am so thankful that I have God to lean on during this pregnancy... if not, I think I will join the statistics of those who suffer from perinatal anxiety or depression.
Friends, please keep our family in prayers :) that we will continue to depend on God as we journey into a new phase together. Thanks a million!
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