Difficult stuff

Going through some difficult stuff...

Ploughing through some difficult questions and needing answers from God...

Waiting to hear from Him.

God remains sovereign, His plans always higher than ours... GOD IS GOD.

I am hoping to find my answers soon.. in the meantime, I am just glad that God gives me the space to be myself, to get real about the difficult questions, and to wait and listen.

Yup, "waiting" is the word.

And I'm glad that in the midst of all these difficult stuff.. I could still enjoy some time with a good friend at the dinner table.. catching up.. talking about all sorts of things and issues etc... and enjoying life.

Thought for this passion week: "Yet not my will, but Yours be done."

Prayer is the work

The end of Man is where God begins.

人的尽头乃是神的开始

Prayer IS the work we are to do...

Prayer IS our ministry.

"No man is greater than his prayer life. The pastor who is not praying is playing; the people who are not praying are straying."

(quoted from Chapter 2 of Why Revival Tarries, by Leonard Ravenhill)

Posture in prayer

I am really enjoying every bit of my time with Candra today though I still have some work to do from home.

So much has been happening in the lives of different close friends lately.. both hubby and I have been somewhat busy... so we really miss enjoying our time with Candra :) Thankfully, we are not downcast or feeling overwhelmed, all by His grace... :) God's teaching the both of us a very new lesson through this season. People are very different from tasks. People problems are much more difficult to resolve than problems relating to tasks. We are driven to our end and humbled by our limitations... and He has been causing us to pray a lot more for without prayer, there's no way we can move ahead each day with joy and strength.

We have been personally encouraged by Moses' example in prayer, his posture in prayer during the battle against the Amalekites. Lately, we have been wondering to ourselves, maybe all the spiritual leaders recorded in the bible prayed in that posture most of the time and maybe that's what we ought to do most of the time. God's really teaching us a new lesson and dimension in prayer.

As I take time today to rest in God.. and enjoy my precious time with Candra...my heart is filled with so much joy and peace.

Thank You God for being my source of strength in times of trouble.

Some pics I took with our new G11

Need a break!

Wow.. there's just been so much on my plate recently... I hope to get a break soon.

Been telling some ppl about how I need to switch modes quite quickly... from family, to work then to ministry and then back to family, then to work, then to ministry again, so on and so forth.....WOAH! can't change that quickly sometimes.

Told hubby a few times that lately, I've really been caught in the heat of battles (spiritual ones I mean), some are my own battles, some are others'....not easy stuff... but guess it's a great season to learn what it means to rely on God in weakness. And probably that's the reality of life..I have no complains really, I just need to know how to re-charge myself :)

I feel a somewhat weak and tired today.. God please help me..

Time to move forward? Changes...adjustments?

Hubby met up with his mentor last night.

Some stuff transpired in their conversation... basically, our family may have to face some major upcoming changes.

Honestly, I appreciate that there's someone else in his life to challenge him as he moves along in his life journey. That's something I know I as a wife cannot really do. It's a guy to guy thing.

Well, it's not a bad thing to experience changes and adjustments..but I guess we would usually still prefer to stay in our comfort zones (if we have the choice haha).

We'll still need to discuss more.. haha! Hubby said he will need to sit Candra down and speak to her about it.. that's funny! She's barely a year old! I think the session will be super cute. Candra will probably be wondering, "what's daddy talking about?"

I am filled with excitement and anticipation on the one hand..but also some fears on the other.

Hmmm........what's coming up? :p

Time to slow down

I am feeling quite tired.. and the heatiness in the body's not helping.

But I am thankful hubby and I managed to spend some time at Holland Village's Starbucks last night. We each spent some time on our own... I journalled, he listened to songs on his mp3, read some stuff and journalled... it was a well-spent 1plus hours although we hardly talked to each other. Such times can be very therapeutic and I admitted to him that I missed those days when I was still single and could just spend such times on my own as and when I wanted. I need such times, to get in touch with myself and with God, especially when so much has been happening around me.

As a mother, I have come to realise that it's really important to take good care of my emotional health and that means making enough time for God daily. Without good emotional health, it's difficult to take good care of Candra without wanting to snap at some times. Thankfully, I managed to control myself... there were a few times when I really felt like snapping.

Honestly, Candra's not a very difficult child. She does have quite a fiesty personality and well, she does like to challenge her limits. She has no qualms about expressing her displeasure and because she has a naturally loud voice, sometimes, her talking seems like shouting to me. But, I have been reminding myself to celebrate her good traits and not expect her to be the super cooperative kind of child. She's been behaving well at CGs and sunday services... I don't mean she's quiet all the time and sits still.. but for her type of personality, both hubby and I think she's been doing great already. I do need to constantly remind myself that she's unique.. and that I must not expect so much out of her that she loses her personality. For one, I can't expect her to lower her volume all the time.. haha.. especially when she's probably inherited the loud voice from me.

Well, everything's been great. Hubby and I have been discussing about many things... and wondering where God is leading us in ministry. We both concluded that we are in a season of waiting for God to unfold His grand plan for us...in the meantime, we just got to remain faithful and prayerful.

On a side note, last night, we prayed this for Candra, "Lord, please cause Candra not to shit at night cos no one's sleeping in the room with her." Guess what! Immediately after that prayer was said, Candra showed signs of wanting to do her business and we put her on her potty immediately! Praise the Lord for answering such a small but important prayer of ours. And well.. Candra slept well :) He never fails to amaze us through answered prayers.

God is truly good.. all the time.

She said "ti - ker" :p

Candra loves to play with the small animal finger puppets.

She was playing with the tiger this morning.. and I just kept saying "tiger".. and she tried "ti...ti...ti.." and finally, "ti-ker".. sounded quite like it. :p Super cute. But that was just once, she did not want to repeat it thereafter no matter how hard I begged her to do it. haha!

My little girl's learning to speak.. Wow!