Dark Night of the Soul

It's been a long while since I posted something here..

It's because I have been going through probably the toughest season in my life so far...

Finally, I think I know what I am going through.. it started off from realizing that I have been depressed and suffering from a burn-out... then.. just 2 nights ago, I read something which really spoke to me.. and made me realize that I am probably going through what some would call the 'Dark Night of the Soul'...

I thank God for helping me realize that.. because although relief is not in sight now, I know I will get through this season with His light at the end of the tunnel...

It helps to know that He has allowed this to happen for a reason and that He has not forsaken me to darkness.

The only thing I can do now in the midst of the craziness and pain.... to lean on Him and trust Him with all my heart even when I can't see or feel a thing.

Praise the Lord.

Candra.. on the topic of marriage :)

(Candra, after attending so many weddings, is now always talking about getting married)

Me: Why are u wearing a pretty dress?
Candra: I want to get married, mummy let's get married.
Me: No, you cannot marry me, you must marry good boy boy.
Candra: Who? (went on stating some names...haha)
Me: Let's pray now for your future ok?
(After praying...)
Me: Did mama marry good boy boy?
Candra: Yes.
Me: Who is that?
Candra: Papa
...
Candra: But I cannot marry, because boy boy don't like to hold my hand. Boy boy like to walk by himself..how to marry?

(Candra, when trying to hold their hands w friends, gets refused at times.. hahaha)