Just came back home from Esplanade...had a good time chilling out with Pauline. We went to Deb Fung's concert. She writes really meaningful songs...songs with depth. I think she's a really sweet girl..she shared genuinely with the audience. She's a good testimony of Christ.
It was a good time chilling out cos it's been a very hectic week. Many ups and downs at work.. heart attacks.. ah...hard to share the long story over the blog..but well.. some huge problem cropped up at work.. not resolved yet...the consequences can be really huge or can be small..depending on many uncertain factors.
But the BIG problem drove me quite crazy yesterday. I guess it is the uncertainty of not knowing what lies ahead..the fears that I will have to face the worst outcome. Well.. I tend to think negatively rather easily..that's why I worry....
BUTTT...because of this, God has been teaching me a new lesson. When I reach my end (and I really mean my end because there is NOTHING I can do about circumstances..nothing that can be controlled in the human realm), what do I do? Who do I turn to?
I had doubts...can i really trust God? Will He ensure that things turn out fine for me? Will He give me a miracle? Many such questions bugged me...essentially I struggled believing in Him. For a while I could not stop worrying..I was robbed of my peace in Him.
Wenguang reminded me, God is good, God loves me, God is in control. I found it hard to let the truths sink initially.. but I prayed and God strengthened me with courage to walk on. Wenguang also reminded me that we should not focus on the circumstances but on who He is. That set me thinking....Can I just TRUST HIM?
Read My Utmost for His Highest this morning...I was directly challenged by God..."Am I seeking Him for His blessings, miracles, help etc. or am I seeking Him?" There is a difference. Only then did I realise that God is helping me re-learn what it means to surrender and trust Him.
Oh well..circumstances have not changed...but I am really learning to TRUST HIM.
Thank God for giving me strength and courage to face each day, whatever happens, He is with me.
"You will keep in perfect peace, he whose mind is steadfast because he trusts in You."
Life's been hectic..work has been hectic...but I am looking forward to the rest over the short trip next week. I shall now enjoy every moment of rest.
We can experience God in all circumstances, if only we seek Him =)
Life's exciting because we are ever learning more about God and ourselves.
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Amen! I think we all go through times when we feel like God is far away or that our life just isn't going right or that we don't know if we can trust God with it. It's usually when we pass these times without giving up on that trust when we do see what He has done. Stay strong, I pray everything will fall into His pattern.
Hey girl,
Hang on to Him. He is God.
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