Simplicity...faith like a child

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." Prov 3:5-6

"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Marry has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." Luke 10:41-42

The desires of my heart lately:

1. To be a good wife...

2. To be a good daughter and daughter-in-law...

3. To be a good servant of God...

4. To be a good employee...

5. To be a good friend...

But I have lost the simple faith of a child in the midst of fulfilling all those desires.

I have been trying too hard to make the right decisions, to keep my priorities, to prevent myself from falling short of anyones's expectations etc. Sometimes, its just so hard to fulfill every single role to perfection and it's hard to make decisions. I have been too distracted by trying to get things right.

I can imagine God looking at me and urging me to stop trying so hard. At the end of the day, His love for me is not dependent on any of that. Why be a Martha and tire myself out? It's unnecessary.

To rest in His love and to acknowledge Him in all my ways..that's sufficient. I hope I will stop focusing on whether I have made the right decisions, but whether I have acknowledged Him in every decision.

God sends me the same message time and again, "Your world need not be so complicated...my little girl, stop thinking so much =)"