still in office :(

Aiyo.. i am still in office. Just came back from dinner with boss, waiting to leave for clients' meeting at 830pm!! ARGH!! sigh...Been pulling my hair quite a bit again lately because of stress at work...ARGH! Got to stop pulling... !!!

Quite happy that I managed to discipline myself to eat slowly during meals...:) Got to get rid of the indigestion problem!

The past half a year hasn't been easy...ups and downs in my personal walk with the Lord and I call this the 'pruning' process as described in John 15. Painful and tough, but I am trusting that He has His greater plans. I thought I knew myself, but actually, I did not. There are still many parts of me which need to be uncovered by God... the stubborness, the pride, the unwillingness to submit etc. The human will is still strong, and that has to go. The reality that God is God has been hitting me real hard. His sovereignty, though hard to grasp, is a huge lesson which I need to learn. Many a times, I forget that He is God and I am man. The message that has been ringing within me, "I am the Potter and you are the clay".

Well, though painful, I guess it's worthwhile at the end of the road. It's the process of knowing God for who He really is. Many a times, I choose to know the side of God which makes me feel good, but that's not the complete picture. It just isn't.

Ah well... I am learning to thank God for all these... to thank God even when it doesn't FEEL good.

Hab 3:17-19

17 Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,

18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

19 The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights.