Blessed by an angel

Was feeling troubled by life's circumstances again this morning...

To cut the long story short, our family is still going through a season of great uncertainty in light of some things that happened.

It's been a long time since I last faced such great uncertainty... not knowing where we are to head as a family, not knowing what kind of major decisions or changes we are to make (if any). And God seems to be silent still... for now.

Thankfully, God sent an angel to encourage me this morning.. a dear sister who lent me her ears and who understood everything that I said. Sometimes, it's difficult to find someone who can understand fully why you think or feel or certain way. She certainly made me feel that I finally found someone who could understand better why I am handling the current situation in this manner.

Though many questions are still left unanswered and the conversation did not resolve the uncertainties which I am faced with at present, I guess I am encouraged to continue hanging in there until God chooses to make everything clear to me.

The challenge now is to keep trusting God day by day even though the road ahead seems uncertain.

Now, another challenge I am about to face is this, my boy is about 3.3kg now apparently...and I AM ONLY AT 35 weeks!!!! I really hope to have natural birth, like I did with Candra... and this weight issue may pose as a challenge. The good thing is, I don't have to worry about my boy being too tiny..the flip side of it is, the natural delivery part may be slightly challenged. Doc said that the possibility of inducing is always there depending on his weight... just like Candra had to be induced after being overdue for 6 days because she was also getting really big. Doc already said this boy definitely can't wait till after EDD, cos he would probably be too huge by then for natural birth.

Argh!!!.... it may be too late now to control my diet.. but oh well.. I will still try and do all that I can..........

Can't wait to see my boy actually :)