Rest in Him

I fell ill yesterday and I have been feeling super tired over the past few days. Experiencing some tension headaches too and all these point to one thing, STRESS.

I am so glad I had some time this morning to start journalling and be quiet before the Lord. I tried to release my tension and fatigue through sleep, personal time and some entertainment, but I knew in my heart that true rest can only be attained in His presence. All those methods of stress relief are but temporary. So yup, finally took some time to be quiet before the Lord to pour out everything to Him... and I know I've got to do that somemore before I can truly say I am well rested.

I have been plagued with worries and fears.. been wondering whether it is 'right' to go back to part-time and home-based work...whether I am trying to accomplish too much i.e. work, family and ministry.......ministry because although I am no longer formally serving in any ministry, I wish to continue ministering to people from home... Well, being the thinker or OVERthinker that I am, I will always inevitably get myself super stressed up and tensed.......

Talked to God about things just now.. about everything on both hubby's and my plate....ultimately, we can only surrender ourselves to God's guidance on all these critical life decisions. If He leads us somewhere or to do some things, we also have to trust Him to give us the necessary strength and capacity to go through all the difficulties and stress which come along. That's life....as the saying goes, life is not a bed of roses.... but our hearts' desire is that we would not just SURVIVE through all the difficulties and challenges but THRIVE.

Both of us are being immensely stretched in all directions now that we are parents of two... but through all these, we are also learning to rely on God even more. To rely on Him for physical, emotional and spiritual strength...everyday... every moment...

No matter what, God will always be good... :)