Popular question: "Are you excited?"

Lately, many people have been asking me, "Are you excited about the baby?"

This is a question which brings about mixed feelings.. but I think it's a good question which reminds me to remain positive about this whole new phase.

I don't know whether all mothers-to-be struggle in the same way. So far, I am thankful that I do not suffer much discomfort physically. But, the battle is in the emotional realm. Questions like these come to mind:

1. Will I be a good mother?

2. Will I know how to take good care of the baby?

3. Will I be able to cope and not get stressed/depressed?

4. Am I talking to the baby enough now, so that the baby knows I am talking to her?

5. Is my diet ok for the growth of the baby? Is the baby growing fine?

6. Am I doing enough in preparation for her arrival?

7. Am I doing enough to ensure she is growing well physically, emotionally and spiritually?

8. What will the birth process be like?

9. Am I going to make a mess out of things when she arrives?

10. What do I need to get ready before her arrival? What do I need to buy? etc.

and so on and so forth...

Sometimes, it can be quite scary.. :) hehehe.. Scary because it's SO NEW!

BUT, I think I just need to start getting down to reading books etc.. buying the necessary items etc..and stop thinking and start doing...and everything will just fall into place.

Well.. nobody can be a perfect mum. In this, I need to constantly acknowledge my need for God's grace. I feel like I need to grow up so quickly... but I am also reminded that actually God is not rushing me...and He will lead me step by step. Maybe the perfectionist me is getting myself all anxious again. :(

Back to the question, "Are you excited?". Well.. I believe I am in some ways.. for it is a good thing to look forward to God's blessing. I strongly believe in that. I know this is how God sees the whole process, "IT IS GOOD". :)