Lately, many people have been asking me, "Are you excited about the baby?"
This is a question which brings about mixed feelings.. but I think it's a good question which reminds me to remain positive about this whole new phase.
I don't know whether all mothers-to-be struggle in the same way. So far, I am thankful that I do not suffer much discomfort physically. But, the battle is in the emotional realm. Questions like these come to mind:
1. Will I be a good mother?
2. Will I know how to take good care of the baby?
3. Will I be able to cope and not get stressed/depressed?
4. Am I talking to the baby enough now, so that the baby knows I am talking to her?
5. Is my diet ok for the growth of the baby? Is the baby growing fine?
6. Am I doing enough in preparation for her arrival?
7. Am I doing enough to ensure she is growing well physically, emotionally and spiritually?
8. What will the birth process be like?
9. Am I going to make a mess out of things when she arrives?
10. What do I need to get ready before her arrival? What do I need to buy? etc.
and so on and so forth...
Sometimes, it can be quite scary.. :) hehehe.. Scary because it's SO NEW!
BUT, I think I just need to start getting down to reading books etc.. buying the necessary items etc..and stop thinking and start doing...and everything will just fall into place.
Well.. nobody can be a perfect mum. In this, I need to constantly acknowledge my need for God's grace. I feel like I need to grow up so quickly... but I am also reminded that actually God is not rushing me...and He will lead me step by step. Maybe the perfectionist me is getting myself all anxious again. :(
Back to the question, "Are you excited?". Well.. I believe I am in some ways.. for it is a good thing to look forward to God's blessing. I strongly believe in that. I know this is how God sees the whole process, "IT IS GOOD". :)
Thursday, January 08, 2009
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