I Need Thee Every Hour

It's almost midnight now, but both hubby and I are not asleep yet. We just spent some time talking after putting our kids to bed... and we are still not going to sleep yet because we feel that we need some more personal space. Very often, we unknowingly pressurize ourselves to sleep early because our mind tells us that we need sufficient rest to meet the demands during the day. BUT, sometimes, this kind of pressure makes it even more difficult for us to get restful sleep. So yup, we concluded today that we each need to get some more personal time to relax before turning in, even if it means turning in late. Basically, we want to turn in when our hearts feel more at rest.

Ever since Joshua arrived, I have been running like a machine... this machine runs non-stop during the day, gets some rest at night and then starts running again the next day. There is hardly time to stop, relax, reflect and rest...Thankfully, by God's grace, Joshua started sleeping through the night after the 8plus 9pm feed and dropped his dream feed this week. YEAH! No more night feeds after bedtime at about 9pm. Finally, I can get my continuous night sleep... and he only starts the day at 7plus 8am. All parents yearn for good sleep at night I am sure... and I am super grateful for that now. At least I can rest after the kids are put to bed.

Yesterday, we were at hubby's parents' place... managed to scoot out for a 1 hour M-time...our first M-time since Joshua arrived. Though short, it was better than nothing... Looking forward to more M-time now that Joshua's trained. Can drop the kids at parents' place more easily and scoot out for some M-time.

It's been crazy taking care of the kids and chores at home... well, I am managing..but I am still adjusting. Something else more crazy's coming along... I am going to return to work. Going into office 2 times a week and working from home. Haha.. I know, to mummies out there who have no help, this sounds absolutely crazy. :) I think so too.... Actually, I am a little apprehensive about the whole thing... training Joshua on the bottle now (so far so good), training him to take his naps and follow his routine at my mum's place (so far so good).... Things are moving along as planned.. BUT, I do feel stressed about the whole thing. Seriously............ But for now, seems like I just need to give it a shot. Partly because I don't feel it's time to leave my boss in the lurch yet... well....we shall see... Good thing is, they know that it's probably going to be a temporary thing or are at least prepared for the eventuality that I will be gone.... cos at some point, I will most likely drop it altogether. Pls pray that I will not go crazy and will be able to manage everything by His grace for as long as I need to manage everything on my plate.

In the meantime, I am really really learning to rely on the Lord every moment of my day. Praying to the Lord always has become something inevitable I guess..The hymn, "I need Thee every hour" has also become one of my favourites because that's so so applicable to me.

I need the Lord to help me not raise my voice at the kids or lose my patience when they drive me nuts.

I need the Lord to give me strength to manage the never-ending and repetitive house chores over and above everything else.

I need the Lord to give me joy in the midst of the craziness everyday.

I need the Lord to heal me when I feel sick or on the verge of falling sick (sometimes, I feel that mommies can NEVER fall ill).

I need the Lord to take away my worries about the future work arrangement and to grant me the courage to just take things a step at a time as He leads me.

I need the Lord to give me the peace and confidence every night to know that His mercies for me tomorrow will be brand new.

I need Thee every hour.