By God's grace, I have been feeling pretty fine with the whole staying at home thing :) The children's routine help tremendously. When Candra was first trained for her routine and sleep when she was an infant, we appreciated the results.. now with 2 kids, I appreciate the importance of routine and sleep training even more. There is more order to my day and the independence of the children when it comes to their sleep makes life a lot easier. I am glad Joshua's daily routine is more or less fixed, so I can plan my day around that. Chaos is largely minimised I must say and there's a lot more predictability. I can plan when to rest, when to cook etc.
Candra's been a good sister, she loves her brothers, hugs him, kisses him, squeezes him.. :) She's always looking forward to his waketime (which is still rather minimal at this stage), sometimes, she will want to disturb him while he is asleep... think she's just too excited about her little brother. We thank God for hearing our prayers for Candra when Joshua was in my tummy. We prayed that she would love him, and would grow up to be a good elder sister....so far, God has shown us that He has answered our prayers for her.
All in all, I am very grateful to God for hearing my cries for help and grace...I was initially very apprehensive about staying at home full-time with the kids without any help (cos I had never done that before). I find myself needing to pray every morning for the Lord to bring me through the day with joy and gladness. Indeed, God's mercies are new every morning. By His grace, I have gladly survived 4 days.
Just this afternoon, I sensed myself losing steam a little and the gladness in my heart... plus hubby's going to be away in the evening, so it's just myself with the 2 kids. I felt rather down and fearful because the evening is usually Joshua's super fussy time, coping with 2 kids in the evening by myself can be potentially challenging. I prayed.. and asked the Lord for strength. When the evening came, I told the 2 kids, "This evening, only mummy's around to take care of the both of you ok, so be good please so mummy won't have too tough a time." Amazingly, the both of them were very good. Joshua was fussy but much better than the previous few evenings.. the evening turned out much better than I had expected. After I put them both to bed, I felt so relieved and I just knew that God was merciful to me once again. He was certainly the one who caused the 2 kids to be cooperative.
The journey of motherhood is exciting, but it also challenges me to be more prayerful and dependent on God. To be a joyful and contented mummy everyday is my goal, but I can also do so with God's grace and strength.
Now, I am hoping for continued joy and gladness daily in the days and weeks and months to come :)
3 comments:
Mother-Hood is a Blessing. Just remember all the women who can't have children when you find your hair standing on end. I think you are wonderful and strong. I love your blog and your story is a beauty of a story. Keep telling it!
I really enjoyed reading the posts on your blog. I would like to invite you to come on over to my blog and check it out. God bless, Lloyd
You can do it! =) God will give you the strength you need.
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